[Of course it matters! she wants to scream. It matters that she know exactly how close the Fog God is to giving up on her entirely. How many extra chances could She possibly be willing to give someone like Amanda? Someone empty, a mere shadow of what a person should be? Amanda can't afford to fuck up again, because sooner or later it'll be one fuckup too many and she'll be thrown out like so much trash. I cleaned up your mistakes, and I forgave you for them, John had told her as she'd been in the process of making that one last mistake, the one that would convince him to consign her to death because she could no longer be trusted to do as he expected of her.]
It does. It matters. I can't...I can't keep failing her.
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It does. It matters. I can't...I can't keep failing her.